Resentment

Baby cried, I woke up. Its six in the morning and I saw him still at the desk. He is always playing his game till dawn before he goes to bed. It makes me feel that all he cares is the game. I always sleep alone, and that makes me feel kind of lonely. I told him, but he don't care. Now, where's my husband? He don't want to do anything else but play his game.

"Can you sleep or not?" I asked. He said okok, and slept beside me, sticking to me, wanting to hug me. I pushed him away, and tell him to sleep further away, but he refused. Finally, I told him to go away or else I can't sleep because I am too angry. He asked me why, and my reply was: "you wouldn't understand even if I tell you". He turned away from me. I have a husband who doesn't sleep with me because all he wants is to play his game. I really should mock at myself. He might as well marry a game and not me. He doesn't know what I want actually. Every night, I wish that I can have him by my side, talk to me till we fell asleep, but that is a tall order, or should I say it is a never-will-happen reality. His happiness, his every day life, his temper all evolve around the game, he would throw his temper at the mouse or even me if there is a problem with the game.

What does he even treat me as? I am a resentful and lonely wife, does he know that? He would rather play his game than accompany me. I asked him to take me to the mall tomorrow and it seems to be a torture to him, because he can't play his game.

A simple wish, a simple life, I don't ask for much, but he never get it.