我复活了

There she stood, dress in a smart mandarin maroon blouse with white pants, with a tint of light make up, she looks 20 years younger from my last impression of her lying on bed in the hospital ward.

I greeted her in astonishment as to why is she here (because she had left us already). She replied me with a smile, telling me:"我复活了”.

Ahboon ahyi was in the scene after and was seen talking to her, a faint impression I had is ah peng ahyi asking me where is my mummy.

From this dream, I decipher that ah peng ahyi has gone to a better place living in happiness or has gone for reincarnation to a new life, that deems the explanation of "我复活了”. It is a happy dream.

Snail Cream

http://www.snailcream.com.sg/index.php?country=SG

• Improves elasticity, firmness, density & texture of the skin
• When cream is applied to fibroblasts (cells that synthesis collagen),
  it enhances the proliferation & functional capability of these cells
• Keeps skin soft & helps heal troubled or acne skin
• Helps regenerate damaged skin & prevent dryness
• Brightens skin, soften wrinkles & treats fine lines
• Softens scars and smoothes stretch marks

I am quite tempted to get this snailcream, it looks pretty convincing in removing scars.

$55 for a bottle, should I? Or anybody wants to share this with me for a trial?

Baby Clinic

When I moved to Yishun at end of July last year, I noticed we have a baby clinic just nearby at block 417, it is of course good to have one nearby. I do not bring Dylan to the pediatrician unless I really find the need to (because it is extremely expensive to see one).

Even with cough/flu or fever virus hitting him, I always been able to cure him with medicines off the shelves or from the pharmacy. The medicines the baby doctor frequently prescribes are more or less the same, they can be purchased from the pharmacy! Unless I find that he is not getting better and in fact getting worse, and maybe require antibiotics to make him better.

And so I thought, with fever for 3 ongoing days, I decided to bring him to the Ooi Baby and Child Clinic, I was afraid his bronchitis is back and need nebulizer to help his lungs, but looks like I was too over anxious. Dr Foo not only said he does not need nebulizer, he does not need antibiotics as well, as his fever is gone by evening and he's recovering. So off I went off with all the medicines I already have at home for $87.00! Gahhhhhh!

I am very sick myself too, I was the one who spread the virus to Dylan. Battling with chesty cough all day long and heavily relying on iliadin to breathe. I still cannot decide to continue the chinese medicine or just continue to take danzen and robitusin. By the way, the chinese medicine in syrup form IS HORRIBLE and cost me $38.00. I just like spent a hundred over spending on medicines for both of us.

Close shave

I took a half day leave to send ah peng ah yi off for the last time. The crematorial service was supposedly held from 5.15 to 5.45pm.

Coincidentally, Dylan's NUH appointment is also today at 3.10pm. The hospital was so packed, the waiting time for consultation and collection of medicine took so long, I only manage to leave the hospital at 5.05pm.

I knew I am going to miss everything. I was so upset and angry with myself, why didn't I reach the hospital earlier, why didn't I just reach an hour earlier for the appointment, why am I so dumb... How could I... I prayed in my heart telling ah peng ah yi to wait for me, please wait for me, don't make me regret this moment.

We rushed to mandai crematorium hall only reaching at 5.45pm in the peak hour rush. I rushed into the hall heaving a big sigh of relief seeing everybody still there. I made it time because they were also held up in bad traffic. Ah peng ah yi really did wait for me.

Ah yi, rest in peace, may you enjoy good fortune in another world. You will always live in our hearts.

The sisters bond

I stare at this screen for quite a while, to think of how to pen down my thoughts. This afternoon, we rushed to the hospital to see her for the last time. We knew her as ah peng ah yi, having diagnosed with stomach cancer since last year.

We visited her at the hospital for quite a few times, and everytime I see her, she became weaker and thinner, she had totally lost half of her body weight.

I reached the ward, stand by her bedside and watch her, I can't do anything but cry, and cry.

She lost the battle to cancer today, 17-Mar-2012.

I witness today, the bond they shared between the sisters. They stroked her, kissed her, touched her, for the very last time. They were sisters for more than 40 years now, the lost of a sister. I shared the same grief, I was speechless, I watched and stood there and do nothing but cry. I am still crying, I cannot bring myself to stop. I cannot accept the fact that people who are very close to me will one day leave me. I cannot.